Mahabharata — Volume III (Dutt edition) — Chapter 20
MBh 3 20.1
द्रौपद्युवाच अहं सैरन्ध्रवेषेण चरन्ती राजवेश्मनि। शौचदास्मि सुदेष्णाया अक्षधूर्तस्य कारणात्॥
draupadyuvāca ahaṃ sairandhraveṣeṇa carantī rājaveśmani| śaucadāsmi sudeṣṇāyā akṣadhūrtasya kāraṇāt||
Draupadi said Alas, on account of that one skilled in gambling I am under Sudeshna's command, dwelling in the palace in the guise of a Sairandhri.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.2
विक्रियां पश्य मे तीव्रां राजपुत्र्याः परंतप। आत्मकालमुदीक्षन्ती सर्वं दुःखं किलान्तवत्।।२।
vikriyāṃ paśya me tīvrāṃ rājaputryāḥ paraṃtapa| ātmakālamudīkṣantī sarvaṃ duḥkhaṃ kilāntavat||2|
O repressor of foes, princess as I am, see what pitiful change has come upon me I am living in expectation of a hopeful future, but my misery has reached its extremity.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.3
अनित्या किल मानामर्थसिद्धिर्जयाजयौ। इति कृत्वा प्रतीक्षामि भर्तृणामुदयं पुनः॥
anityā kila mānāmarthasiddhirjayājayau| iti kṛtvā pratīkṣāmi bhartṛṇāmudayaṃ punaḥ||
Accomplishment of purposes and victory and defeat with regard to mortals are of short duration. Thinking this, I am expecting the return of prosperity to my husbands.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.4
चक्रवत्परिवर्तन्ते ह्याश्च व्यसनानि च। इति कृत्वा प्रतीक्षामि भर्तृणामुदयं पुनः॥
cakravatparivartante hyāśca vyasanāni ca| iti kṛtvā pratīkṣāmi bhartṛṇāmudayaṃ punaḥ||
Like a wheel prosperity and adversity revolve. Thinking this, I am expecting the return of prosperity to my husbands.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.5
य एव हेतुर्भवति पुरुषस्य जयावहः। पराजये च हेतुश्च स इति प्रतिपालये। किं मां न प्रतिजानीषे भीमसेन मृतामिव॥
ya eva heturbhavati puruṣasya jayāvahaḥ| parājaye ca hetuśca sa iti pratipālaye| kiṃ māṃ na pratijānīṣe bhīmasena mṛtāmiva||
That which becomes a cause of a man's victory may become the cause of his defeat as well. I live in that hope.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.6
दत्त्वा याचन्ति पुरुषा हत्वा वध्यन्ति चापरे। पातयित्वा च पात्यन्ते परैरिति च मे श्रुतम्॥ न दैवस्यातिभारोऽस्ति न चैवास्यातिवर्तनम्। इति चाप्यागमं भूयो दैवस्य प्रतिपालये॥
dattvā yācanti puruṣā hatvā vadhyanti cāpare| pātayitvā ca pātyante parairiti ca me śrutam|| na daivasyātibhāro'sti na caivāsyātivartanam| iti cāpyāgamaṃ bhūyo daivasya pratipālaye||
O Bhimasena, why do you not consider me as dead? I am told that persons that give may beg, persons that slaughter may be slaughtered by others, and that persons that ever throw others may be over-thrown by enemies. There is nothing difficult for destiny nor can any one over-rule destiny.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.7
स्थितं पूर्वं जलं यत्र पुनस्तत्रैव गच्छति। इति पर्यायमिच्छन्ती प्रतीक्षे उदयं पुनः॥
sthitaṃ pūrvaṃ jalaṃ yatra punastatraiva gacchati| iti paryāyamicchantī pratīkṣe udayaṃ punaḥ||
It is with this hope, I am expecting the return of favorable fortune; once before where there was water, there comes it back again. Hoping for this change, I am awaiting the return of prosperity.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.8
दैवेन किल यस्यार्थ: सुनीतोऽपि विपद्यते। दैवस्य चागमे यत्नस्तेन कार्यो विजानता॥
daivena kila yasyārtha: sunīto'pi vipadyate| daivasya cāgame yatnastena kāryo vijānatā||
When a man's business, although brought into a stage of completion, is seen to be endangered then a wise man should strive hard for the getting of good fortune.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.9
यत् तु मे वचनस्यास्य कथितस्य प्रयोजनम्। पृच्छ मां दु:खितां तत्त्वं पृष्टा चात्र ब्रवीमि ते॥
yat tu me vacanasyāsya kathitasya prayojanam| pṛccha māṃ du:khitāṃ tattvaṃ pṛṣṭā cātra bravīmi te||
Immersed as I am in grief, whether you ask me or not I shall tell you in detail, the purpose of these words now spoken by me.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.10
महिषी पाण्डुपुत्राणां दुहिता दुपदस्य च। इमामवस्थां सम्प्राप्ता मदन्या का जिजीविषेत्॥
mahiṣī pāṇḍuputrāṇāṃ duhitā dupadasya ca| imāmavasthāṃ samprāptā madanyā kā jijīviṣet||
Queen of the sons of Pandu, and daughter of Drupada, who else but me wishes to live, having been reduced to such a plight?
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.11
कुरून् परिभवेत् सर्वान् पञ्चालानपि भारत। पाण्डवेयांश्च सम्प्राप्तो मम क्लेशो ह्यरिंदम॥
kurūn paribhavet sarvān pañcālānapi bhārata| pāṇḍaveyāṃśca samprāpto mama kleśo hyariṃdama||
() repressor of foes, this my misery surely brings humiliation, O Bharata, on all the Kurus, the Panchalas and the Pandavas.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.12
भ्रातृभिः श्वशुरैः पुत्रैर्बहुभिः परिवारिता। एवं समुदिता नारी का त्वन्या दुःखिता भवेत्॥
bhrātṛbhiḥ śvaśuraiḥ putrairbahubhiḥ parivāritā| evaṃ samuditā nārī kā tvanyā duḥkhitā bhavet||
Being surrounded by numerous brothers, father-in-law and sons and thus having ample cause for rejoicing what other woman but myself has become so miserable?
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.13
नूनं हि बालया धातुर्मया वै विप्रियं कृतम्। यस्य प्रसादाद् दुर्नीतं प्राप्तास्मि भरतर्षभ॥
nūnaṃ hi bālayā dhāturmayā vai vipriyaṃ kṛtam| yasya prasādād durnītaṃ prāptāsmi bharatarṣabha||
O foremost of the Bharata race, certainly in my childhood I did some wrongful act to Dhata and through his displeasure I have fallen into such a woeful plight.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.14
वर्णावकाशमपि मे पश्य पाण्डव यादृशम्। तादृशो मे न तत्रासीद् दुःखे परमके तदा॥
varṇāvakāśamapi me paśya pāṇḍava yādṛśam| tādṛśo me na tatrāsīd duḥkhe paramake tadā||
Behold, O son of Pandu, the paleness of my complexion which even in the extremely miserable life in the forest could not come over me.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.15
त्वमेव भीम जानीषे यन्मे पार्थ सुखं पुरा। साहं दासीत्वमापन्ना न शान्तिमवशा लभे॥
tvameva bhīma jānīṣe yanme pārtha sukhaṃ purā| sāhaṃ dāsītvamāpannā na śāntimavaśā labhe||
O Pritha's son, it is you alone that know what happiness had I in my former days, O Bhima; even I, who was thus circumstance, have now sunk in slavery: paralysed in grief I cannot obtain rest.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.16
नादैविकमहं मन्ये यत्र पार्थो धनंजयः। भीमधन्वा महाबाहुरास्ते छन्न इवानलः॥
nādaivikamahaṃ manye yatra pārtho dhanaṃjayaḥ| bhīmadhanvā mahābāhurāste channa ivānalaḥ||
As the mighty-armed and terrible bowman Dhananjaya, the son of Pritha, lives here, like a fire covered over by ashes, then must I think that all these actions are due to Destiny.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.17
अशक्या वेदितुं पार्थ प्राणिनां वै गतिर्नरैः। विनिपातमिमं मन्ये युष्माकं ह्यविचिन्तिततम्॥
aśakyā vedituṃ pārtha prāṇināṃ vai gatirnaraiḥ| vinipātamimaṃ manye yuṣmākaṃ hyavicintitatam||
O son of Pritha, it is not possible for people to understand the destiny of creatures. Therefore this your downfall, I think, could not have been thwarted by fore-thought.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.18
यस्या मम मुखप्रेक्षा यूयमिन्द्रसमाः सदा। सा प्रेक्षे मुखमन्यासामवराणां वरा सती॥
yasyā mama mukhaprekṣā yūyamindrasamāḥ sadā| sā prekṣe mukhamanyāsāmavarāṇāṃ varā satī||
Alas, she who has you all resembling Indra always to look after her comforts, even that one, who is so chaste and bears so lofty a station in life, is ministering to the comforts of others who are far below in rank to her.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.19
पश्य पाण्डव मेऽवस्थां यथा नार्हामि वै तथा। युष्मासु ध्रियमाणेषु पश्य कालस्य पर्ययम्॥
paśya pāṇḍava me'vasthāṃ yathā nārhāmi vai tathā| yuṣmāsu dhriyamāṇeṣu paśya kālasya paryayam||
Though all of you are alive, behold O Pandava, my plight. It is such as is quite undeserving of me. Lo! how times change.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.20
यस्याः सागरपर्यन्ता पृथिवी वशवर्तिनी। आसीत् साद्य सुदेष्णाया भीताहं वशवर्तिनी॥
yasyāḥ sāgaraparyantā pṛthivī vaśavartinī| āsīt sādya sudeṣṇāyā bhītāhaṃ vaśavartinī||
Alas! she, who had the entire earth as far as the verge of the sea under her command, is now living in fear of Sudeshna and in subjugation to her. a
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.21
यस्याः पुरःसरा आसन् पृष्ठतश्चानुगामिनः। साहमद्य सुदेष्णायाः पुरः पश्चाच्च गामिनी॥ इदं तु दुःखं कौन्तेय ममासा निबोध तत्।
yasyāḥ puraḥsarā āsan pṛṣṭhataścānugāminaḥ| sāhamadya sudeṣṇāyāḥ puraḥ paścācca gāminī|| idaṃ tu duḥkhaṃ kaunteya mamāsā nibodha tat|
Even she, who had number of dependents to walk both in van and rear, is now walking before and behind Sudeshna. O Kunti's son, listen to another grief of mine; it is unbearable to me.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.22
या न जातु स्वयं पिंपे गात्रोद्वर्तनमात्मनः। अन्यत्र कुन्त्या भद्रं ते सा पिनष्यद्य चन्दनम्॥
yā na jātu svayaṃ piṃpe gātrodvartanamātmanaḥ| anyatra kuntyā bhadraṃ te sā pinaṣyadya candanam||
Even she, who had never pounded unguents for herself except for Kunti, has been now pounding the sandal (for others) O! let good betide you.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.23
पश्य कौन्तेय पाणी मे नैवाभूतां हि यौ पुरा। इत्यस्य दर्शयामास किणवन्तौ करावुभौ॥
paśya kaunteya pāṇī me naivābhūtāṃ hi yau purā| ityasya darśayāmāsa kiṇavantau karāvubhau||
O Kunti's son, behold these hands of mine, they were not so before.” Saying this she showed both of her hands marked with corns.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.24
विभेमि कुन्त्या या नाहं युष्माकं वा कदाचन। साद्याग्रतो विराटस्य भीता तिष्ठामि किङ्करी॥
vibhemi kuntyā yā nāhaṃ yuṣmākaṃ vā kadācana| sādyāgrato virāṭasya bhītā tiṣṭhāmi kiṅkarī||
Even that one, who had never feared Kunti nor any of you, now stays a slave in fear before Virata,
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.25
किं नु वक्ष्यति सम्राण्मां वर्णकः सुकृतो न वा। नान्यपिष्टं हि मत्स्यस्य चन्दनं किल रोचते॥
kiṃ nu vakṣyati samrāṇmāṃ varṇakaḥ sukṛto na vā| nānyapiṣṭaṃ hi matsyasya candanaṃ kila rocate||
(Always do I remain in fear thinking) what the king of kings will say to me as about the unguents if they are not well pounded; because the king of the Matsya's does not like the sandal pounded by others.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.26
वैशम्पायन उवाच सा कीर्तयन्ती दुःखानि भीमसेनस्य भामिनी। सरोद् शनकैः कृष्णा भीमसेनमुदीक्षती॥
vaiśampāyana uvāca sā kīrtayantī duḥkhāni bhīmasenasya bhāminī| sarod śanakaiḥ kṛṣṇā bhīmasenamudīkṣatī||
Vaishampayana said Narrating her woes to Bhimasena, O Bharata, the lady Krishna wept silently with her glance fixed on Bhimasena.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.27
सा वाष्पकलया वाचा निःश्वसन्ती पुनः पुनः। हृदयं भीमसेनस्य घयन्तीदमब्रवीत्॥
sā vāṣpakalayā vācā niḥśvasantī punaḥ punaḥ| hṛdayaṃ bhīmasenasya ghayantīdamabravīt||
She, with words tremulous with tears, and sighing repeatedly addressed Bhimasena thus powerfully moving his heart.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.28
नाल्पं कृतं मया भीम देवानां किल्बिषं पुरा। अभाग्या यत्र जीवामि कर्तव्ये सति पाण्डव॥
nālpaṃ kṛtaṃ mayā bhīma devānāṃ kilbiṣaṃ purā| abhāgyā yatra jīvāmi kartavye sati pāṇḍava||
O Bhima, surely had I committed many sinful acts to gods in my former days. Unfortunate as I am, I am still alive, my death is preferable to me, O Pandava.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.29
वैशम्पायन उवाच ततस्तस्याः करौ सूक्ष्मौ किणबद्धौ वृकोदरः। मुखमानीय वै पल्या रुरोद परवीरहा॥
vaiśampāyana uvāca tatastasyāḥ karau sūkṣmau kiṇabaddhau vṛkodaraḥ| mukhamānīya vai palyā ruroda paravīrahā||
Then Vrikodara the slayer of hostile heroes, covering his face with the delicate hands of his wife, marked with scars, began to weep.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)
MBh 3 20.30
तौ गृहीत्वा च कौन्तेयो बाष्पमुत्सृज्य वीर्यवान्। ततः परमदुःखार्त इदं वचनमब्रवीत्॥
tau gṛhītvā ca kaunteyo bāṣpamutsṛjya vīryavān| tataḥ paramaduḥkhārta idaṃ vacanamabravīt||
The powerful son of Kunti, having held both of her hands in his own, began to shed tears, and stricken with great woe spoke the following.
— tr. M.N. Dutt (1891–96) (public domain)